Do you ever find yourself just killing time - full of excuses why you don't have to do the one thing that could be done? (notice that I did NOT say, "should be done") This goes beyond procrastination. It is a deliberate avoidance of the better thing. This is where I found myself entrenched for a good part of yesterday afternoon. At the time, it seemed that the posting of a blog entry might even have been a ploy to escape from what really needed to get done. After weeks - indeed months, of favoring an intentional disposition of practiced discipline, it seemed the thrill was gone. Chalk it up to spring fever on that luscious mid April day? Could I blame it on allergies? Or, is it out- right sloth or laziness?
Those were the thoughts going through my mind yesterday. Having put some space between myself and those reflections, I am grateful for a new day. Grateful for the realization (once again) that this sacred dance is so often one step forward, two steps back. That is grace. I'm grateful for grace. Grateful for second chances. Grateful that I can begin again. And again.
It's a new day. Late morning finds me writing this blog. This helps me keep my perspective in proper focus. Right now, for me, this is the better thing that could be done. For that, I am grateful.
What is the better thing for you?
Hah - I have to laugh! The mechanics of this blog are enough to confound me. Take note that the posted time of 3:20 PM is three hours off. This blog posting did not take me three hours!
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Writing (and that includes rewriting which for some reason I find less daunting) is the better thing for me. However, a certain amount of thinking and reflection is required to write anything. I think that's what L'Engle means when she talks about "being". I'm still trying to work out the proportions.
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